I was just like you, I had beginner's luck and was winning at an unprecedented rate. But that catches up to you quickly. All the sudden, my units were in the thousands and I thought I could make up whatever I lost. Next thing I know, I'm $100k+ in debt and considering if I want to live.
There are thousands of people who have gone through this exact scenario. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I know you feel like you can't tell anyone about this, but you can. You have to if you want to get to the other side. Start here, reach out to me and let's get you back on track.